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You may have postpartumdepression ifyou have had a baby within the last 12 months and are experiencing some of these symptoms:
· You feel overwhelmed. Not like “hey, this new mom thing ishard.” More like “I can’t do this and I’m never going to be able todo this.” You feel like you just can’t handle being a mother. Infact, you may be wondering whether you should have become a mother in thefirst place.
· You feel guilty because you believe you should behandling new motherhood better than this. You feel like your baby deservesbetter. You worry whether your baby can tell that you feel so bad, or thatyou are crying so much, or that you don’t feel the happiness or connection thatyou thought you would. You may wonder whether your baby would be betteroff without you.
· You don’t feel bonded to your baby. You’re not havingthat mythical mommy bliss that you see on TV or read about in magazines. Noteveryone with postpartum depression feels this way, but many do.
· You can’t understand why this is happening. You are veryconfused and scared.
· You feel irritated or angry. You have no patience.Everything annoys you. You feel resentment toward your baby, or yourpartner, or your friends who don’t have babies. You feel out-of-control rage.
· You feel nothing. Emptiness and numbness. You are justgoing through the motions.
· You feel sadness to the depths of your soul. You can’t stop crying,even when there’s no real reason to be crying.
· You feel hopeless, like this situation will never ever getbetter. You feel weak and defective, like a failure.
· You can’t bring yourself to eat, or perhaps the onlything that makes you feel better is eating.
· You can’t sleep when the baby sleeps, nor can you sleep at any other time. Or maybe you can fall asleep, but you wake up in the middle of the night and can’t go back to sleep no matter how tired you are. Or maybe all you can do is sleep and you can’t seem to stay awake to get the most basic things done. Whichever it is, your sleeping is completely screwed up andit’s not just because you have a newborn.
· You can’t concentrate. You can’t focus. You can’t think of the words you want to say. You can’t remember what you were supposed to do. You can’t make a decision. You feel like you’re in a fog.
· You feel disconnected. You feel strangely apart from everyone for some reason, like there’s an invisible wall between you and the rest of the world.
· Maybe you’re doing everything right. You are exercising. Youare taking your vitamins. You have a healthy spirituality. You do yoga.You’re thinking “Why can’t I just get over this?” You feel like you should beable to snap out of it, but you can’t.
· You might be having thoughts of running away and leavingyour family behind.Or you’ve thought of driving off the road, or taking too many pills, or findingsome other way to end this misery.
· You know something is wrong. You may not know youhave a perinatal mood or anxiety disorder, but you know the way you are feelingis NOT right. You think you’ve “gone crazy.”
· You are afraid that this is your new realityand that you’ve lost the “old you” forever.
· You are afraid that if you reach out for help people willjudge you.Or that your baby will be taken away.